Bring the Rain

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

Chad :)

So...God's timing is ironic...b/c exactly FIVE days after the worst date EVER with the weirdest guy EVER...I met a CUTE, smart, sweet, Catholic, funny guy named Chad ;)
We met @ Moxie...he is a customer haha
Haven't gone out on a date yet. (probably b/c i'm too busy!)
But he called me Wednesday! And visited me @ work Thursday :)
He's SO hot! And the Catholic thing makes him even HOTTer [haha don't make fun of me] ;)

Addicted...i heart K.C. ;)

I LOVE this Kelly Clarkson song!!!! :)

ADDICTED

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

Who I Am

There's this song called "Who I am"--it's kind of an old country song (as in like 5 years or something haha), by this girl Jessica Andrews. It was like her one-hit wonder, but I loved it! The line I always remember is:"I am Rosemary's granddaughter, spitting image of my father, and when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan..." Anyway, this desire to just write a little "Who I am" thing just for kicks popped into my head...


I think frozen yogurt is WAY better than ice cream!

I'm sensitive, but I never cry.

Running gives me a high.

I have high standards in friends and men.

I love my Catholic faith.

I can get pretty mad, but also forgive very easily.

I love white chocolate double americanos!

I think the ocean is magical.

My heroes are my Grandma, Lorissa Ann, Nicole Nielsen, & Andrija.

My cousin Leanna is better than a best friend...she's the sister I always prayed for.

My 3 best friends are Megan, Hattie, and Jessica--and they are amazing :)

There's this person in the back of my head and heart who I'm in love with, and until I find someone better he's the one!

I never sing in the shower, but love to sing in the car!

The rosary relaxes me.

I love being around junior high kids!

I have to sleep with one of my dogs ;)

I think Urban Outfitters is SO COOL!!

My favorite city is Portland, because it is the City of Roses.

I'm addicted to Grey's Anatomy.

Selfish adults frustrate me...

I have been a BSU fan since birth!

I have driven from Minnesota to Washington!

The fact that I took time off of school does NOT diminish my dedication and determination!

I only like one cat--mine!

I drive fast ;)

I babysit for 3 boys who melt my heart :)

I hate beef and love buffalo.

I have yet to kiss in the rain.

I cannot be boxed into a political party.

I enjoy being a brunette.

I love running hills!

I need to learn how to cook (well)...

I struggle a bit with high heels ;)

I can't stand judgmental people!

I love Pita Pit & Mongolian BBQ more than any other food!

I think baggy sweats are amazing...

I think naps are great.

I hate beer!

Whining kind of bothers me...

I'm idealistic in many ways.

I have an non-biological sibling named Brenn :D

I frequently have strange dreams...

I have always been a night-owl (thanks Dad...)

I secretly enjoy LifeTime Movies...

I like to wear sunglasses when it's not that hot or bright.

I want to meet Michael Phelps!!!!

I love St. Anthony and hope he still loves me... :)

I once drove my car into a parked trailer :-/

I text too much ;)

I want to go to HAWAII!!

I believe life is precious.

I have experienced amazing miracles.

I believe my grandparents watch over me.

I know God has a plan.

I know WHO I AM.

I've been avoiding this haha...

So yeah...I've not been on this in awhile.
It actually feels like longer.
Stuff.....
But yeah, basically this is my excuse for now posting multiple blogs ;)

hmmmm...whats up? eh...

So I kinda failed to mention on the last blog (was it yesterday? i don't remember...) that I went on a date on Tues night. Ha. It was actually pretty lame. Because my friend Jessica, who is one of my best friends bless her heart & was the one who set me up with the guy, has a really dysfunctional relationship w/her boyfriend and they actually ended up breaking up and getting back together during this double date Tuesday night........yeah....drama is FREAKING fun :) not. So yeah, we were supposed to meet @ Moxie @ 930 when Kody (my date) got done w/night class @ BSU, go to the corn maze, and then get something to eat.
BUT...he got pulled over for speeding (b/c he was so excited to meet me no doubt, ha) and then Jessica & her b/f got into a fight and so we ended up meeting up w/Kody around 10:30.
And I was starving b/c I'd taken 3 ibuprofen, a vitamin, and an allergy pill all on an empty stomach around 830...b/c I'd just woken up from a nap, wasn't hungry, had a sore throat, and had bad allergies, and most of all, wasn't thinking!
So...to avoid me getting an ulcer and because it was so late we ended up just going to IHOP and eating. And that was OK except that Jessica's b/f is retarded and so conversations involving him were lame and contained too many F words...haha....However, when I talked to Kody by ourselves (during Jessica & Adam's "make-up" and then after IHOP) we had really good conversations. He is really sweet, and is going to school @ BSU to be a psychologist (common interests, yay). The one thing that is awkward is that Jessica (trying to entice me to go out with Kody) told me he was Catholic. Which...he was raised (kind of). But now he is 7th day adventist. Yeah, wow.......I was a little surprised to hear that. BUT I think it is a little unfair to not date him when that's the only thing wrong with him...so I'm giving it another shot. :)
We're going to the BSU/Hawaii tailgate/game tomorrow night, which is SWEET b/c I didn't think I'd get to go!
So yeah...we'll see where this goes...;)

BUT. beforehand @ Moxie Jess & I took some really CUTE pics, and she IS one of my besties...:) So here they are:

goofing off in the bathroom ;)


yeah she's a goof but i <3 her...;)

Hmm. What else.
OH YEAH!
My Little Nicole got SECOND @ City!!!!
And the only girl she beat was from BK who is a different division (4A) so THAT means she could WIN STATE!!!! (which she totally deserves to !!!)
I <3 her so much, she is amazing! And wherever she goes next year--BYU, Duke, Oregon State, whatever...she will be INCREDIBLE!

Ok well...I gotta go watch McCain on Letterman (HA!) and Greys I DVR'd.
But PEACE out
and VOTE PEOPLE !!!!
18 more days ;)

endorphines

I'm feeling better as of about monday, and its SOO great.
and i realized today that:
8 hours of sleep+endorphines=GIDDYness haha
i just started doing these jillian michaels dvds and she's awesome! hard but awesome. anyway i got to work today and realized i was in the greatest mood!
haha i guess endorphines really DO make you happy :) [legally blonde]

dude i'm watching the debate i dvr'd tonight and its SOOO boring. wow.

it needs to be election day, i'm getting sick of all the drama and hype.
and i can't wait to VOTE in my first presidential election!!!!

hmm. lets see. i'm planning leanna's baby shower, it's november 1st.
Krista, Marci!!! why can't you be here?! dang you...;)
P.S. she's HUGE! its crazy. i was talking to ryan today and asked him if he'd seen her and he said, "dude her boobs are SO huge!!" haha.

so. hmm. sarah palin is a freak...
anyway...

city XC meet is tomorrow. without sara...that will be weird. i have a feeling there will be alot of messed up kids...hopefully they can pull it together. and hopefully Nicole will do GREAT!

i'm going to pocatello saturdayd to watch my YOTES race!!!!! and i'm SURPRISING THEM! it will be so fun :D

well.
i have nothing more to say.

goodnight!

FLU, burnt wrist, & crappy friend ALL IN ONE!...Lovely...

I am currently awake @ 330 AM because I can't sleep.
Because I have the AWFUL flu (i.e. SORE THROAT, shakiness, achy body, cough, runny nose, weird-feeling stomach), and my chest/stomach feel funny.
And also because I slept from midnight to 2 PM yesterday (Saturday) which I am definitely not used to.
So seriously...if you don't take Vitamin C, TAKE IT, I don't care where you are, I bet I wouldn't have got this if I would have!!!! And believe me you do not want what I have, because it's nasty!
Enough about the FLU...

I have a WICKED burn on the under part of my left wrist from work. Thursday, I was baking cookies during my afternoon shift. And, I am not very experienced at actually BAKING the cookies, as I never get afternoon shifts until now. So...I tried to be all cool and flip the cookie sheets using only ONE oven mitt...and, consequently, I got this awful burn. Which will probably turn into a scar for life, and by the way, looks like I tried to slit my wrist--which is AWESOME! Because I'm totally like that! Not...
So here's a picture of the ghastly thing:



yeah...awesome, huh?
AH
it hurt!
i'm making my coworkers get the cookies out of the oven from
now on...


I really hope that with some neosporin and time it will diminish...
Anyway.
So as if having an awful flu and attending the funeral of a 17 year old wasn't enough fun for one week...one of my friends had to turn B#*%# on me!
Yes, wonderful...
I wrote this, and it was very therapeutic. Why not share, seeing as how only roughly 2 people will probably see it, haha:

"Dear Friend"

Dear Friend,

Or should I call you "former friend"? Because that would clearly be more appropriate.
Where do I begin?
You are the absolute worst friend I have ever had. You are the perfect example of a one-sided relationship--I gave you everything-love, support, friendship--while you gave nothing in return.
Strike that.
You actually DID give something: you WERE a good friend. At one point, you taught me an invaluable lesson about self-image and confidence. I could talk to you about anything; you listened and were supportive.
Which, actually makes it worse. If you would have been the typical "friend" in a one-sided relationship, you would have used me and screwed me over, and done nothing good. And I would have realized you were never a good friend, and kicked you out of my life. BUT. You WERE a good friend. Which makes it hurt even more.
Because NOW? You're selfish. You're stupid. You're immature. You're apathetic. You don't listen, you don't care, you don't pay attention. You talk about stupid things, and won't talk about anything important. You do the absolute stupidest crap. You can't even take care of your own freaking self.
Seriously?
I can't believe I cared. I can't believe I worried. I can't believe all the prayers I said for you (and probably will continue to...because I'm like that). I can't BELIEVE you were my hero, a role model, someone who I wanted to be like.
THAT thought-- makes me sick....
Because all you are now is a selfish, empty person.
And you do not have my friendship anymore.
It's gone.
Like everything else in your life.
When are you going to realize you don't have anything?
And that there is more to life than YOUrself?
When you do...
Maybe I will want to talk to you again.
But really?
Who knows.

Yeah...so that really, in fact, made me feel better. And I managed to actually speak with this person today and be nice. So that's good.
I don't know...I just don't want to waste time being around someone like this.
It's really hard for me, someone who probably cares too much, to understand her, someone who doesn't care at all.
But, as Lorissa told me. I guess it is better to be a sensitive, compassionate person and get hurt by loving others, than a cold selfish one who can't truly experience love.

Well thats my story, and I'm sticking to it.

Peace, Love, Obama
haha
oops...wrong quote...:-/

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Bri

What's New?

Well I'm sick, that's what's new...so this will be short.

Saw Genna & Jaxson, and they are moving here in a few weeks!!!! YAY!!!!

Went to the Reba & Kelly concert tonight w/Ally and it was INCREDIBLE!!!!

Danny (my cousin) got kicked out of our house b/c he's a pot-smoking idiot! I should feel bad for him (slightly), but I'm sick, sorry!!

Sara's funeral is tomorrow; I'm going w/Hattie. It will be sad...

Yeah thats pretty much it...

Now for some Tylenol PM, awesome.

Life is precious...

So tonight I walk into the church office room where we plan the junior high nights, and two of my high-schoolers were having this conversation:

"Did you know Sara Shields?"
"Oh yeah. Why?"
"She died this weekend."
"What?!"
"They found her body at the bottom of the high bridge at Lucky Peak"
"Oh my gosh..."

or something along those lines...

Yeah. Come to find out, this girl's name was Sara Shields, a senior at Timberline High School, and an amazing cross country runner.

I didn't know her. but I know many people who did.
And seriously...Boise cross country is kind of a big family...I mean, being 3 years older than her I probably raced her at some point...

I just can't believe it.

They don't know what happened. The news hasn't actually released a name yet, just "Dead body found at lucky peak." Nice, by the way...

Her death is said to be "suspicious." But really nobody knows what happened.
Whatever did happen--suicide, homicide, accident...it is a tragedy.

God...how awful...I can't imagine what her loved ones are going through...

~RIP Sara~
You & your family are in my thoughts and prayers
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